she said

she cried, and she said she could feel her liver breaking into pieces.... i cried and asked how she felt that.

its like she knew she was leaving me to a world so harsh and cruel. but what she taught me lives with me and it will endure forever in my heart.

we lose people unexpectedly, we may know that one day, they will pass, but we don't know when.... i wish we knew so we would prepare ourselves and atleats try to get through it before it even happens. unfortunately even if we knew the date, time and place, the pain will still be there, we cannot avoid that.

you know when you cry your eyes out, it feels better after, but for that moment.... life is hard, the obstacles and challenges we come across are sometimes great and overwhelming. i have realised, crying helps for a certain period of time, but when will it stop, when will the pain stop?

hmmmmmmmmmm I'M GLAD I'M DOING THIS

we dont forget, we get through

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my tears are not falling down, and neither are yours... we should stop looking back and think "how would today be, if she were here?"

our lives deserve to be lived to their full potential. why then do we deprive our selves the kind of happiness that we deserve?

i cry almost every night, and i often say "if she were her", but fact is, she is not. and i have to live with that every day. no one deserves to lose some one the value most in their lives, especially when they would still need them

you constantly find your self asking questions no one has answers for. we grieve for years, when will the pain go away.... the pain of losing some one you love is always there, and i think it will always be there... how we get through that is in our own hands. some times we do not want to get it because we feel as if we would be forgetting about them.

well this blog is for people who feel the pain of loosing some one they love most, some one dear to them.... and you know what i have realised...... we don't forget, we don't get over it, but we get through it... its part of the healing process, but do we ever heal?...... i know i haven't, and maybe someday, some where, some how, i will.

pain has found a place in my heart, the loss of a loved one is just hard to bear.

I'm hoping the pain will finally leave its inhabitant in my heart....